asking [friends] for help.

Picture above = some very good friends.

Hey everyone!

It just occurred to me (literally seconds ago) that I need to stop pretending that I know everything.

Until I admit to myself that I am still learning and that there is so much knowledge and wisdom that I can attain from other people I will continue to struggle. I know who I am and how to listen to what my heart is saying (I try at least) but sometimes the most profound wisdom that I encounter is found outside of myself.

I need to stop being so afraid to look outward. In order to do this I am going to have to do something that I have never been comfortable doing: asking for help.

For some reason I always thought that asking for help meant admitting defeat: if I can't do something on my own it makes me a failure who is unworthy or any attention that would be attained through reaching outward. However, it is this kind of thinking that gets me into trouble in the first place!

Reaching out does not mean I am a failure but rather that I am assertive and eager to learn from the experiences of others.

From here on out I am going to make a solid effort to keep reminding myself that sharing my daily experiences (battles, discoveries, celebrations, etc.) with other people is totally necessary if I want to keep growing as a person. I am also going to make an attempt to learn as much as I can from the experiences of other people. I tend to get stuck in a rut, thinking that that way I have been doing things is the only way. The logical part of me knows however that breaking my own rules and routines is what makes me feel most liberated, not remaining a prisoner to them.

Every day seems to teach me something valuable and I am going to try and remember that with each answer that comes my way, there is always another one waiting around the corner.

And good friends make everything better (:

Goodnight friends!

sunday lameness...

Oh the joys of a sunday night.

After a blah weekend filled with a bit of friend time, a drop of home-work doing, a lot of driving, and not an ounce of time with J., I am ready to call it a day.

Do you ever have days where things seem a bit "off'"? I think its safe to say that today falls into the "I-think-I-feel-a-funk-coming-on" category. I would also say that nothing can help cure a case of the "blahs" like a good nights rest.

So my dear friends, good night and sweet dreams.

I'M BACK

Seriously what is up with the fact that I haven't posted on here in foreverrrrr?

What is the picture of? Oh just a HUGE snowman that my neighbor's made. It seriously rocks (or at least it did before it melted...)!

I apologize for my absence; things have been a bit hectic in the life of Sarah lately.

So what have I been up to exactly? Well:

- School work (which I am avoiding right now by the way): Reading, writing, campus meet ups, looong discussions with my teachers, etc etc.

- Friends! I have been getting a healthy dose of socialization lately and it feels wonderful!

- J. time (:

- Music!!! I am finding that when it comes to fitting more music into my day, multi-tasking can be a lifesaver! For example: because I spend so much time in the car driving to and from school, work, and such, I find that I am able to work on songs during this travel time! Not new ones usually, but rather old ones that I working on and I know well enough to sing a capella while driving. It's awesome because motion usually gets my brain fired up and I come home with finished songs.

- KITTEN! My mom (who shares my intense love for animals) has been feeding a family of feral cats that live outside of her school building for the past few months. She noticed them one day while heading home and she has been bringing them food every day since. About two weeks ago while my mom was feeding the cats, she noticed a kitten who did not run away from her like the others did. After a closer look she realized that the kitten was very sick with what we later found out was an upper respiratory infection. Anyway, the kitten stayed with us for the night, during which time we fell in love and convinced my dad to let us adopt her. Here we are two weeks later and little Sheela (if you want more info as to where her name came from just comment and let me know) and I are snuggling together on my bed. She is so loving! She is constantly purring and begging for me to pet her. (:

Okay well I am off to finish some homework and hang out with the kitty. Adios!